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Fuck it.

Sun Mar 30, 2008, 8:36 PM
  • Mood: Disgust
  • Listening to: "Stand the Pain" And One
  • Eating: Jelly Belly jelly beans.
I don't know why, but I am in an uncharacteristically sadistic, savage, and spiteful mood. I want to sink my teeth into someone and bite them until they bleed and then I want to laugh at them. I want to hurt something and watch it cry. And that's not like me. Not like me at all. I don't know what's given rise to such violent and vicious impulses.

Well, maybe I do. It's been a rough week. "Spring Break" hasn't been a break at all. I haven't had any real respite. In fact, it's been quite the opposite. If it hasn't been my family freaking, a friend freaking, the guys I'm with spazzing, tensions between Chris and I running high... yeah. Shit's gone pyriform. But I have adopted a new life's motto. From the Tragical History of D. Faustus: "Che sera, sera." What shall be, shall be. What's the point of fighting the tide only to drown?

That isn't to stay I won't fight when I must. But in general... shit happens. I can't stop it from happening. Might as well roll with the punches, since they seem to come at me ceaselessly. Might as well take the hits. Might as well not invite 'em anymore. I've gone 22 years fighting the wind, getting shat on, yelled at, beaten, bloodied, bruised, kicked, broken, and hurt. You know what? Fuck it. I will help who I can help. I will do my thing, I will continue on. And the world can go fuck itself. It doesn't want me, doesn't need me, and you know what? I don't need it either.

Don't take that as a suicidal impulse. No such thing. I've got too much shit to accomplish to do that shit. It'd be pointless, childish, and unnecessary.

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~Zexnon:iconZexnon: Mar 30, 2008, 8:37:46 PM
*merfles* x.x

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~bluetheillusion:iconbluetheillusion: Mar 31, 2008, 2:15:49 AM
Aww, I'm sorries hon <3 I hope things get better for ya :<
~Deviantgirl12:iconDeviantgirl12: Apr 1, 2008, 3:31:11 PM
It's hard, living your life, trying to do the right things, trying to have time for everyone important to you and not piss them off on a daily basis. It's hard to make a name for yourself anywhere and nowhere -- and some of the time, it doesn't matter whether or not you do make something of yourself. That's not to say that a lot of people don't try to live up to what they want to be, what they think they should be. And that's good to have life goals, to fulfill something good not only for the 'invisible' standards of society, but for your own personal satisfaction.

But sometimes, it's just a little too much to take on alone. It's good to have friends or relatives (or both) that you can go to whenever you feel like shit and beating the everloving crap out of something or someone. You can always talk to me if need be -- and I can always run up there and take you away to a tropical beech if need be XD Some R&R, eh?

You can laugh at me if you'd like >.>

Well, it's not the world that sucks, but the PEOPLE on the world that suck ass. I feel you on that. I don't know what a spring break is anymore -- except for the fact that my brother has a whole week off 0.o

Hope this helps, and not infuriates you >.<

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"Build them up, so you'll never have to hurt too long. Put them up, so there's no real you left to be found. Hold it up, no fear of hope or trust or love. Close it up and hold your ground... Wait until it's time to finally close it down." --Celldweller
*InTheWings:iconInTheWings: Apr 1, 2008, 8:41:39 PM
I'm not infuriated with you, why would I be? I appreciate your support :hug: and thank you for it. <3

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~Deviantgirl12:iconDeviantgirl12: Apr 6, 2008, 1:33:35 PM
No problem at all :hug:

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"Build them up, so you'll never have to hurt too long. Put them up, so there's no real you left to be found. Hold it up, no fear of hope or trust or love. Close it up and hold your ground... Wait until it's time to finally close it down." --Celldweller
~Aidenn-Faolan:iconAidenn-Faolan: Apr 10, 2008, 7:56:40 PM
...am I the only one who finished reading this and thought, "Awesome..." to myself?

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*InTheWings:iconInTheWings: Apr 10, 2008, 9:44:24 PM
<_< Probably. xD

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~Aidenn-Faolan:iconAidenn-Faolan: Apr 17, 2008, 10:14:34 PM
^__^ Well, that's what you keep me around for. Then again, I embraced the dark side long ago. So go killabitch.

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*InTheWings:iconInTheWings: Apr 18, 2008, 7:11:07 AM
*evil laughter*

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